never think about that rain

" ♫You could be my unintended ♪,♫ Choice to live ♪my life extended,♪You could be the one I'll always love♫" i heard my phone played Muse song by itself,actually it was the signed someone calling me..

Abe long appeared on the screen who is my brother.He said assalamualaikum, and i answer him. Kori what are you doing right now? "he asked. from the rhythm of his voice i knew he was in happy.I am doing nothing right now,why?i asked him back. i just wanna tell you that my car has arrived"he said.What i guess was right his car which was booked 2 months ago has arrived.what?..i also surprised to hear that. yeah,the myv has arrived i'm on the way back to home right now and wanna show the car to our parents,"he add..ok, please drive carefully and send my regard to our parent,"i said to him.ok,byby"he said and our conversation ended.

After that,i call my sister who is USM student to tell her the happy news. She also glad and surprised when i told her.At the moment, i knew the whole of my family happy right now becaused my family has owned car. Even though it was only a mvy but it is meaning a lot to us mostly our parent. finally, after 22years they can sit in their son's car.

Yeah,my family is not from rich family and only have 2 piece of land which was inherited from our grandfather. The land was the main sources of income for my parents to raised their 4 sons and 3 daughter.My parents only worked as rubber tapper but now they can proud because their elder son has become bank officer. All the hard time they going through to raised all of their children were paid by the success of us.

3 days after, my family once again receive a happy news. my second sister got her spm result and she collect 5As.

the above story i wrote a week before a tragedy happen to my family. the tragedy which was changed my family completely.

After dr.bano class,i received 4 missed call from my sister through my mobile and i call her back. From the phone i heard someone was crying. my sister answer with rushed,she asked me to call my elder brother.i called my brother. he answer,kori you need to return home as fast as you can, i knew he pretend he in calm condition. At that time i realized someone i love in home has left me forever...

With tears come out from my eyes i asked my brother what exactly happen?he not said anything...When he heard i cried made he can't hold his tears either. he just said "i am on the way to hospital"..

the brand new hope

the pain you felt yesterday

i can't absorb all the pain come to my head.
trying to remove the pain without realize i have create another pain.
if i have a gun right now believe me i will pull the trigger straight to my head and it should reduce the pain i felt inside.

ya Allah please give a little strength for me.
so i can live in your world.
i really need it right now ya Allah,ya Allah.

i felt there is a big stone in my head.
it is so heavy really heavy.
to bring the stone everywhere it such a big burden for me.

ya Allah please turn the stone to an ice.
so i can feel calm and harmony.
i really need it ya Allah.

Aminah Wadud

Hahaha, when I heard that this women be imam for solat jumaat I laughing loudly. What had happened to the guys at that place? Are they very stupid? How could they let women be imam and they be ma’mum following the women?

When I deeply thinking what the consequences will come if all women think like that?huhuhu.. It would be disaster for the world!!!

Actually we are near to disaster.

Men are born to be a leader to women. Whatever the consequences a man should think how to control the girl. Women not deserve to control us not today, not tomorrow and not forever. I won’t let this happen to me. I won’t let my face below their shoes.

I am a type of quiet person so they thought I’m stupid and problematic person. Girl!! All human are gifted with different ability and weakness. You all think when you can talk loudly in front of the people make you cool than a guy??? You are such arrogant creature when you think like that. You are no match with guy not even a little.

Not mine purpose to cut your strength or your fighter spirit but please pay my races some respect. My races have been your protector for centuries. We died at war, we lose our hand, and we lose our eyes. All the risk we took proudly because we know that is our responsibility to take care and keep all of you safe.

I read some of blog discuss about future husband need to learn to be an imam. I absolutely not agree with the point of view. The writer proudly told she only will marry with someone that can be an imam.huhuhu,, now clearly you know nothing about man. You are judging from the appearance not the content. Now I will let you know girl!!!

Men have critical thinking than women that is fact. We can’t sit 12 hour just to read a book instead of women can spend 24 hour just to read love novel. For men it is enough to read a book for a few pages and they will make conclusion for the whole book different to women which need to read the whole book before come to conclusion.

Men when come to critical situation they will brave and brilliant by itself. If all of you (girl) want to change the guy what you need to do is your must show that you all really rely on them. Don’t ever you girl show your knowledge in front the guy it will make the guy feel very stupid. You need to make them learn from their own mistake.

Most surprised to me there is a guy look agreed with the blog!!! Ooohhhhh please don’t be selfish. Dude, human are not perfect lah. do you realize that we are now out of number?? Are you happy humiliate you own races??For me the owner of the blog is taking the same path with aminah wadud. Very rude!!!

Note: guys please wake up, wake up..we need to help them before they become like aminah wadud.

A little bird and a hunter

A hunter found a little bird during he was hunting in the forest. The hunter guessed the bird age was only a couple of month. From the appearance the bird look like very pretty and the hunter expect that the bird would be very valuable when the bird completely grow up so he decide to raise the bird and bring to home.

The main reason the hunter want to raise the bird not because he want to sell it but he wanted to decorate it in his house with something that rarely find. The hunter thinks the bird which he has found in the forest is very unique and very costly to have it and he hope when the bird come to his house that would change the house to cheer and happiness.

After A week the hunter discovered something weird when the bird not even makes a sound. The hunter becomes worry but he never lose hope because during he found the bird in forest he clearly saw and heard the bird was sang sweetly and he believed one day the bird would sing to him and make the house full with happiness.

Actually the bird realizes his master deeply wants him to sing but it can’t make the sound because the house and the forest are the different world. In the forest the bird felt free and no one care about it. He can fly wherever he want to go, he can eat whatever he want. No one take a point what the bird did.

But it is different in the house. The bird was unhappy with the environment he has to live in prison cage and eat same food everyday which is not his life. He tries to tell the hunter but a human can’t understand the bird language.

Despite of that it love the hunter because it knows the hunter has scarifies a lot of thing for its. The bird never thinks to escape from the hunter what he really wants only feel free from the cages.

One day, the hunter becomes boring with the bird. The hunter comes to the bird and yelling out to the bird and he said the bird just make his life difficult and terrible. Actually the bird not understand what the hunter said but the expression from the hunter’s face the bird know the hunter hate and not like it anymore.

The bird feels very sad and cry but the hunter never understand.END

Note: don’t ever a human be like” a bird and a hunter” world..they made a noisy but never understand each other. The hunter should let the bird free because both of them are suffered from the lack of communication and they just torture themselves.

neither guess nor read face expression not tell you everything perhaps its working sometimes but not always its is work.

an history

since i was child i always dream that i can be a scientist but it is not come true and contrary with my field of study right now in accountancy. am i regret of it?? no i am not regret at all. what come to me is the best for me.

i want to tell about my ambition to be a scientist. actually the idea to be a scientist came from the science fiction movie i watched in the television. the best movie at that time is "Back to the Future"the time traveler using a car. haha how funny isn't it?
being a scientist is full with adventure. creating and inventing new thing to make the world better that is the reason why scientist exist in this world.

during i was 15 years old i worked hard in PMR exam in order to full fill my dream, alhamdullillah i got 5a and qualified to take science class in maahad muhammadi pasir mas.after 3 month at new school i felt uncomfortable with the environment. the freedom i got from stayed far away from family i put it in wrong way. no one keep an eye on me here, i involved with bad student, often absent classes, and discipline problem. actually i realize that i have changed.

after a few days thinking that i can't go through with the place and worry the situation became more worst i have decided i need to go back to old school. "before i lost too far it is better i take the way back". the hardest thing is i have to forget my dream to be a scientist.

at old school i took literature as field of study.

after 2 years study for Spm i got only 2a 6b 1c 1d 1e. i really disappointed with my Spm result and shamed to show the result to family. i really shame with myself,my family, my neighbor and everyone in this world because of that i'm not return to home and slept in my friend rent house for three days.

at that night i crying alone outside the house and wondering whether i have made a mistake when i changed the field of study. my family try to call me but i off my hand phone. in my deep heart said i needed always to optimistic there is still a hope for me. "what come to me is the best for me".

alhamdullillah, i got offered from uitm to take diploma in banking management. the light have shined a little for me. i took this opportunity and registered in uitm. i wanted to prove to my family that i still can success and made them proud of me.

Don't give up

You need to proud about yourself
Maybe you body change but not your soul
You still same like you five years ago
You just need to change the way you thinking
Just accept what come to you
Sometimes Allah wants to test you
How you act
What you will do
Just accept it
Allah has given you much
Perhaps Allah took something from you
But Allah has given you a lot of thing
Be patience
Allah wants to test you again
Be patience
Don’t regret on what has happened
Allah has big plan for you
Be grateful human
The key of peace and happiness already in your hand
You just suffered from old scar
The scar will permanent
You need to go straight ahead with the scar
No matter how hard to forget
No matter how long you have hurt
No matter what risk need you take
In front of you
There is still a lot of problem you need to face
There is still a lot of challenge you need to cope

the pain you felt yesterday will be worthless if you give up right now

release your tension

Different people use different ways to release tension. Me as example when I tension I need to hear Muse song to release it. I’ll lock my bedroom and then I up the volume to the top and put the Altec Lansing speaker close to my ears and I sing together follow the songs. After I hear 5 or 6 Muse song my mind feel empty and I feel all my problem has solve. Normally, Muse songs I hear are muscle museum, hysteria, starlight, sing for absolution and the latest uprising.

Different to my friend, he told me when he got tension he will talk to his girlfriend and tell the problem to her and after that the problem just vanished by itself. Sometimes he said the problem caused the tension he just forgets it when he talk to his girlfriend. The women’s power. I said to him I can’t follow his way because I not have someone special in my side and he said I should find one. Hehehe. Nonsense, how can I add the problem that I already have? “The point is you need to tell someone when you got problem”, he added.

I’m just agreed for the half of his opinion. He said I need to tell someone when I got tension. Actually I have tried this way but believe me if you want to use this method you need to find someone you most trust. Despite of that, for me there is no one can be trust except your family. My experience I know a guy can be trust and I tell my problem to him and his name is N……N. He is good guy and religious type that was first impression me to him. I told everything to him obviously that was the time I most regret in my life. He used my problem to make jokes in front his friend. My impression to him has change, now he is only big fat clown to me. After that I’m not believe anyone again.

I have a friend he used very weird method in releasing tension. Many of my friends said he is weirdo guy but I like him. He is very relaxed person. He told when he got tension he will write the problem on a paper after that he burn it. Different people use different way.hehehe. The reason why he burn the paper he saw clearly his problem has been burn and the paper become dust the irony is he said the problem just lost in the wind. He no needs to think and worry about it again.

The ultimate solution only belonged to Islam. I have read a lot of book about releasing tension either it from west or east but never found the best solution. Neither music nor talking to someone or burning paper these not solve your problem perhaps you felt empty in your head but it just for temporary. When you use Islam as the cure you will feel permanent peace in your heart. The best book I read it came from Arabic land “La Tahzan”. This book are treasure for Islamic world it taught how to cope when you feel worry and sad by using Islamic ways.

Note: the ultimate peace only come from pure heart

Bob Marley

Last week I talked to my friend his name is….. . He told something that very surprising me. He said he wants to marry with Indonesian girl. Hahaha. This guy is nut. I asked him why he doesn’t want to marry Malay chick instead of Indonesian girl. He said his girlfriend dumped him, Ooo I see that is why he wants to marry with Indonesian girl. He added that Malay girl are all same always happy to deceive a guy. I told him not to judge other people because of one respondent.

After that, I asked him to tell the whole story why his girlfriend dumped him. With a sorrow face his told me that the girl is his first crush and he love her so much suddenly I saw his hand wipe tears come out from his eyes. He said the girl dump him because of the other guy approached her and that guy has handsome face and a rich person. I feel pity for him and asked him to stop the story to prevent him from crying.

I will try my best to persuade and convince him that what he felt is the normal story and he not the only one feel like that and please don’t feel sad. There is a lot of girl outside wait for you so just be patience. He replied to me “yes I know there is a girl waiting for me outside but that girl definitely not a Malay girl” haha. Once again I laughed but I laughed only in my heart I don’t want to hurt his feeling. Yeah it doesn’t matter whether is Malay, Chinese, Slovakian, European or Indonesian but the first rule is the girl must same religion with you.

His face has changed and he can smile right now. I told him not to think about the girl and stop cry for the girl again because when the girl know you cry for her that will showed you are a pathetic guys. The girl become proud herself because a guy has cry for her and it will make the girl never think about you anymore. What you need to do right know give full energy and pay a lot attention at your study. You must prove that you can do better when both of you not to be together.

That is not the first time I saw a guy wipe their tears because a girl I have seen it twice in my life. The different guy but share the same story. I wonder why a guy should cry for a girl. Now the condition shows one guy is equal to 8 girls (this equation is my observation from my class not the real fact). If you have been dumped by one girl that means others seven girls is still waiting for you. So why you still waste your tears for the things not even worthy.

BOB MARLEY: no woman no cry hahaha

3 Words

Today I want to write about three dangerous words which are involved in our daily life. Okay I do not want to play hide and seek with you all so the words are lie, manipulate, and rhetorical. These words can be used for good and bad thing and the user of these words are divided into three different type of user. If we look at the dictionary show the meaning of these words only used for the bad thing but the fact is these three dangerous words can be use for the good thing either. I will try to elaborate and discuss about it as best as I can and hope the result came we will not fall onto it.

First word is “lie” which means you tell something not true to other people. More specific something not exist but you try to prove that is exist or vice versa. I believe my readers know a lot about this word and I also believe we will or have lied to other people even for once in our life. There is no exception even you are good one but the reason you lie will judge you whether you are good or bad person.

“Lie for bad thing” it is not difficult to give a definition for that. “Lie” I already discuss the meaning above and now the word “bad thing” only left to give a definition. Bad thing is synonym to something worst happen. Ok, try we combine both of the meaning “lie for bad thing” it will come to this “you tell something not true to other people for something worst happen”. About the definition we have done so to make we more understand I give you an example “you tell your lecturer that you absent for class because you got fever but the fact you absent for class because you dating with your couple”. The bad thing is you leaved your class because to see you couple.

Now we turn to “lie for good thing”. Good thing means better thing or hope for better future. That means you lying to others people because you hope the bad condition become better. For example you are a father and want to help your son marriage because your son and daughter in-low had big fight so you come to them one by one and said to your son that his wife still love him after that you come to his wife and said the same thing so they can be together again. Another easy example you lying to your couple because you don’t want to hurt his/her heart.

Actually there is a reason why I put lies for the first place before manipulate and rhetorical. The reason is “lie” only used for stupid and uneducated person. Why I said that? Because the risk of lying is too high and if you got caught the people around you will not believe you again even you lying for good thing. When you lie it just same you put a knife at your throat. When you start lying you will always want to lie.

The second dangerous word is manipulation means you used true thing and modified it for your own benefit. Hehe, dude this word is the best even it is dangerous more accurate it is only dangerous for other people but not for the user. Sometimes you can not differentiate the word “use” and “manipulation” because both of the words apply the same method. I give you an example “you use a knife to peel an apple” I also can say that “you manipulate the knife to peel an apple” both of them is same.

Now I tell you how manipulation becomes bad thing. When you use true thing as your weapon and there is no one can prove and deny it fakes. The result is others people will accept what you said without questioning back. For example a cute girl or womanizer deceived a lot of guy, she manipulate her cute face to deceive the guys. Because the cute face is true thing so the guy just accept the manipulation created by the girl and the bad thing is the guy has been deceive. Guys please beware for this type of girl. Another example a case was happened 5 years ago a policeman from special branch (SB) disguise as ordinary guy to get information for a high profile criminal. You know how far the police went? He married with the daughter of the culprit. The police manipulate his marriage to get trust from the culprit lastly the culprit was caught by their own son in-low. The power of manipulation is very dangerous.

How about manipulation for good thing? Ok I just go through the example a guy he is a lawyer and he want to marry a girl who his girlfriend. He asks his parent to propose for him. When his parent go to see the girl, the parent question the girl what her job>?the girl reply she work as medical doctor and then the parents said agree because the girl works as doctor. That means the girl manipulate her job and the good thing is the couple wants to marry. Another example you use your degree to get the job that also called manipulation. You manipulate your own degree.hahaha.

Manipulation normally used by educated person because they can recognizes things that they want manipulate.

The last is rhetorical which mean is giving hope to a lot of people. This word is the word I most hate. When we talked about rhetorical it automatically involved with politic because both of them cannot be separate and when it involved with politic I became not interested at all. Politic is dirty, politic is manipulating, politic is lying, politic is unfairness and because of that I’m not plan to elaborate much about it. if you want to know much about rhetorical please ask the political science student because rhetorical is one of their study field.

I believe all of you think politic is about government and opposition but the fact in office also have politic. If you want promotion you must to be kind with your superior and sometime you need to buy him present also sometimes you need to treat their lunch and this the only way if you want to get easy promotion. One of my lecturer said “know a lot of people is better than know a lot of knowledge”. Nowadays only a few people will measure another people from your commitment. Bias will always happen. That why I hate politic. Hurmm, I’m not even touch about rhetorical.

Most of the rhetorical user is come from high standard person. Only a few people will use it. Ordinary citizen not involved at all with this term because it need to give hope indeed a lot of hope. For example hope for better future, hope live with peace, live without war, live with less crime, economic stability and etc. Those are hopes or maybe shit are given by the politician but never happen.

Note: if you scared of ghost so please don’t watch the ghost story

rasengan

Naruto is the most interesting anime in the world even Dragon Ball cannot surpass it. Every character in that anime is very fascinating mostly Naruto. I followed this anime since I was form 4. That time not same as today because I have to buy cd or dvd when I wanted to watch it and sometimes I just borrowed from my friend. Until now I’m still following that anime but not obsess like I was 2 or 3 years ago now I just copy and paste from my friend or just downloading in the internet if the case I want to watch it.

Every plot in that story full of surprise element. The main character Naruto at first episode, he was hate by the villagers in Konoha village because the villager believed he bring the evil Kyubi inside him. The Kyubi actually the demon fox which was caused the devastation of the village 16 years ago. Naruto became lonely because no one to be friend with him. Day by day Naruto train himself to be the greatest ninja in the village and he also work hard to compete his team’s friend Sasuke who is also his main rival.

The interesting of the story is not only the plots but the unbelievable beauty of the graphic also attracts people to watch the anime. The creator made the scenery of the Konoha village looked peaceful and beautiful. Now the anime has reached to 500 episode indeed it was a lot and far isn’t it?. I don’t know when the anime will end perhaps when I have grandchildren.

The matter fact is Japan contribute a lot of interesting anime such as Dragon Ball, Sin Chan, One Piece, Final Fantasy ( 3D anime), Doraemon, and etc. (it is to many anime if I want to put it all here). The excellent work they did in anime industry can’t be denied again even US can’t do better than them. Japan also known as technological country maybe that is why they can contribute these interesting things. I believe they do a lot of researched before they can appear like now. If there have award and poll for the best country in anime industry absolutely I will vote for this sun rise country.

What about Malaysia? Our country still can compete with Japan in this industry but there must do a lot research and homework. When I was kid the most anime I like were Usop Sontorion and Kluang Man but now the anime never played again in television maybe because these anime were old-fashion. I wonder why they not renew these anime use appropriate graphic like 3D I believe these story can still alive. Nevertheless, Malaysia has contributed an interesting 3D anime that created a chaotic in citizen last year. The fifteen minute Upin and Ipin made us laughing loudly in home. I must admit that they have made an excellent work. Guys keep going on your good job.

Big Day

There are a lot of big day in May such as mother’s day, teacher’s day, labor’s day, and my birthDay.hehe.. But the most interesting to me is 13 of May. Every year when the date is coming the weather becomes so cold. Actually I don’t exactly know what happened at that day. I became curios when a lot of people talked about it. So, I decided myself need to investigate it and made some research.

First resource of my investigation is my uncle. He is very famous and well-known person in the world and he knows everything. I just need to type in the computer what I want to ask him and he will answer me very fastly. His name is MR.GOOGLE SEARCH.hehe. When I type 13 May to him he gave me back 130 documents and I need to choose the best of them and read my own.

I found a document and I think it was the best. At the head of the document it stated name the Keeper Mr. Wikipedia (one of the relative of Mr. Google). I read the documents sentence by sentence until it end. There was shocked me, the 13 May is really big day for Malaysia when a lot of people died at the date and the rumors said the number of death reached to 20000 people.

The document actually consist only an articles and that was obviously not satisfied me hence of that I searched for other document and I found the second one but I need to download it first. In a couple of minute the downloading process finished. The document was PDF type so it easier to me to open it because the software already installed in my PC.

When I opened the document once again it shocked me. The document consists of 56 Pages indeed it is very long article. To finish reading the document need a lot of patient and it required dictionary in front of me because the words of the writer used is beyond my knowledge. How shame am I isn’t it?

Actually I just finished read 15 pages from 56 even though I have jumped into a conclusion. The conclusion is I think all of you should know about 13 May it was a big history to our country. If we as citizen of Malaysia do not know about 13 May we just like a person not have path in our life and we just live in an imagination not in reality.

Mostly current generation now only live in imagination and what have in their mind only about spouse, married, good occupation, and get cute child obviously that are not the reality guys. The reality is behind what you see now you need to open the curtain which has hide the reality with the knowledge and education.

What is life all about?

Some people said world is the place where we need to enjoy because life is only for once and the others said world is place where we need to prepare for the life after we died. The differential of these believe make a lot argumentative among them. One side not happy with the other side involving or disturbing of their life but the others side said we not disturb them but we need to make them understand and aware what is exactly life is all about.

We as a human are not immortal. Death is a certain thing, when people said we need to prepare for the life after we died, yes it is true opinion because the immortality only achieve when we died. If we make a lot of sins we will suffer in hell but if we always make a good thing in the world we will be given heaven after we died this is a promised by Allah long time ago.

The war of believe both sides will never end. The problem is not because they do not know that they will die one day but the real is they not sure there is a life after they died. That is why they said world is the place where they need to enjoy as much as they can.

The result for theirs believe is the new race was created in our society. A race which is does not care about religion and another human. What the most important thing to them is enjoy in their life and the hedonism became the closest friend for them.

The world is not only place for enjoy. We as human were appointed as a caliph in the world hence it is become our responsibility to make the world better. We only borrow the world from our grandchildren. The future generation will question us for what we inherited to them.