In order to survive we cling to all we know and understand thus we label it realty but knowledge and understanding are ambiguous “the reality could be an illusion” all human live with the wrong assumption

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

never think about that rain

" You could be my unintended , Choice to live my life extended,You could be the one I'll always love" i heard my phone played Muse song by itself,actually it was the signed someone calling me..

Abe long appeared on the screen who is my brother.He said assalamualaikum, and i answer him. Kori what are you doing right now? "he asked. from the rhythm of his voice i knew he was in happy.I am doing nothing right now,why?i asked him back. i just wanna tell you that my car has arrived"he said.What i guess was right his car which was booked 2 months ago has arrived.what?..i also surprised to hear that. yeah,the myv has arrived i'm on the way back to home right now and wanna show the car to our parents,"he add..ok, please drive carefully and send my regard to our parent,"i said to him.ok,byby"he said and our conversation ended.

After that,i call my sister who is USM student to tell her the happy news. She also glad and surprised when i told her.At the moment, i knew the whole of my family happy right now becaused my family has owned car. Even though it was only a mvy but it is meaning a lot to us mostly our parent. finally, after 22years they can sit in their son's car.

Yeah,my family is not from rich family and only have 2 piece of land which was inherited from our grandfather. The land was the main sources of income for my parents to raised their 4 sons and 3 daughter.My parents only worked as rubber tapper but now they can proud because their elder son has become bank officer. All the hard time they going through to raised all of their children were paid by the success of us.

3 days after, my family once again receive a happy news. my second sister got her spm result and she collect 5As.

the above story i wrote a week before a tragedy happen to my family. the tragedy which was changed my family completely.

After dr.bano class,i received 4 missed call from my sister through my mobile and i call her back. From the phone i heard someone was crying. my sister answer with rushed,she asked me to call my elder brother.i called my brother. he answer,kori you need to return home as fast as you can, i knew he pretend he in calm condition. At that time i realized someone i love in home has left me forever...

With tears come out from my eyes i asked my brother what exactly happen?he not said anything...When he heard i cried made he can't hold his tears either. he just said "i am on the way to hospital"..

the brand new hope

Thursday, October 14, 2010

the pain you felt yesterday

i can't absorb all the pain come to my head.
trying to remove the pain without realize i have create another pain.
if i have a gun right now believe me i will pull the trigger straight to my head and it should reduce the pain i felt inside.

ya Allah please give a little strength for me.
so i can live in your world.
i really need it right now ya Allah,ya Allah.

i felt there is a big stone in my head.
it is so heavy really heavy.
to bring the stone everywhere it such a big burden for me.

ya Allah please turn the stone to an ice.
so i can feel calm and harmony.
i really need it ya Allah.